It is one day before Raya. People are posting Hari Raya wishes on their social network. While im busy blowing my nose suffering from flu.. erghhh!

I stood up at the hallway of my house. Hurmm.. a long way to go! It is nothing less like a shipwrecked, as messy as it can be! Sobs. Well the house is abandoned since we moved to teluk intan therefore It would take days to clear the house for celebrating this festival.  As I’m allergic to dusts, I got this annoying running nose and sneezing for every 3seconds. Oh my! I don’t want to have red swollen nose and halfway-closed eyes on Hari Raya, sigh…

This year I have different mood for Hari Raya. Im feeling less excited compared to last years. Maybe it’s because of my sisters will not coming back on the first raya? Oh, im afraid when it comes to this. As we got married, we’ll have to consider going back to who’s hometown first, it’s either yours or your husband’s? Of course our heart longing to our house no matter how small and how far it is. Plus with Our moms’ rendang and special menu on hari raya that lured us to be home on the day. I can already smell the alluring aroma from my mom’s soup noodle…ohh..There’s just nothing like it!

okay,i better do some house clearance. If only there really is a Nanny McPhee or Percy Jackson's magic spell,, it will be much easier.Haha..,Last but not least,  wishing my family and friends, and also everyone celebrating this festival,

As I sipping a cup of coffee, I began to feel calm and soothing. A thoughtful ‘forgive and forget’ intention suddenly appeared in my heart. There was a sudden ‘force’ that touched my heart and I knew it was a miracle from The Almighty. For years I’ve been keeping the grudge and vengeful thoughts towards that someone for the wrongdoing and backstabbing. Little did I know within this miracle seconds I was awoken from those bad whispers? I became wise and matured for wanting to forget about what had happened and the conflict that used to be really that matters. After all, people make mistakes and soon you’ll realize that you’ll be doing the same mistake unintentionally. A minute u'll be complaining about the problem that others did but a minute later u'll be doing exactly the same problem just like they did. You might not willing to help ur friend in need but when the day comes u'll be needing the same help from ur friend. I would not say life is a karma but what i know is The Almighty is fair. We'll get what we give and what we deserve. You’ll realize you befriended with different person with different personality and as we get closer to each other, we began to detect different ‘defects’ in their personalities .Today your friend might be that angelic but soon you'll feel there's something not right with the friendship. That is life.

So just let bygone be bygone and begin a new life with different perception. Having good people in our life is a bless, but having to know bad people with bad attitude is an experience. As i grow wiser, I learn to accept various kinds of people and behaviors. I start  to appreciate the right one but  expecting less from anyone. Like the saying,to avoid from disappointment is by expecting less.You don't expect everyone to have all that beautiful values in them. I know I can’t fulfill everyone and not everyone can fulfill me. Even our sisters talk about us behind our back.  And even our shadow leave us in darkness.

So I’ll just keep my head up and live my life to the fullest without being afraid of anyone's perception about me. ..and i'll always be me ..